Emote na pud...

I'm starting to emote again... Well, it's been a while when I posted stating that I was in love "kunohay" but maybe it is stuck there as we go along with this boring relationship or should I call this not a relationship at all... I love the guy but I just don't see the commitment between us. It's not that I want really commitment but all I want is that if he really want this to work, he should have given me even if just a little effort to show that he really cares for me...that's all I wanted. I just want somebody who will show me that he really loves me and not that he would only realized that he loves me when I'm gone and when he gets me back, there's none anymore...it's something like that. It's really complicated.

The problem with him is that he will only try to exert effort in showing that he loves me "kuno" when he knows that I might be gone any time. He will always say that he is busy considering that he is an accountancy student, yes I understand that but my point is if he really loves me and cares for me, he should at least give me some time, even if it is just a little. A text is not that painful... It's just that. What's the point of being together again when you can't even give yourselves a time even if it is just a little. All I want is for him to show me that he thinks of me even in his busy life... I sometimes think that maybe he does not really love me at all. Maybe it is just an infatuation...

Right now, I'm again thinking of breaking up with him again because I can't continue a relationship like this. I can't even call it a relationship because we seldom see and text each other. It is like we are not lovers at all.It is like we are just strangers...I want to stop this mess before I can't afford to let him go anymore, before it's too late... I'm willing to sacrifice what I feel for him if that's the best thing I can do. If that's the right thing to do.

I don't want to complicate things (since my love life is already complicated, hehehehe...). I just want someone who can stand and fight for his love for me. A man whom I can laugh with and would understand and accept me for what I am...
P.S. Emote na pud ko oi...sori na gud! I just want to let this out...